SB 3.4.5
tathapi tad-abhipretam
janann aham arindama
prsthato ’nvagamam bhartuh
pada-vislesanaksamah
Translation by His Divine Grace A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Srila Prabhupada:
Yet in spite of my knowing His desire [to destroy the dynasty], O Arindama [Vidura], I followed Him because it was impossible for me to bear separation from the lotus feet of the master.